Why?

Alone I sit under a m00nlit midnight sky
Gazing at the infinite with stars so bright
Deep with thought of the perfect life I had
Of the memories that we shared,both good and bad
My life of perfection diminished to this
Why... amongst all these friends am I...Alone?

The times you held me in your arms I melted
I felt I was someone special and you were mine
Teaching me that I have the potential to shine
You gave me strength and courage to face reality
And now I sit with out you I too am at the edge!
Why... amongst all these friends am I alone?

All that's left is the grief, pain and fear
Where shall I go? Who now do I turn to?
I know this is not how the end is suppose to...
But faith might bring us back together again
I sit under the m00nlit midnight sky,
With my broken heart and wonder...
Why... amongst all these friends am I alone?

m00n
 

If God reduced us all to one then to what is one reduced?
 
 

" Fat Pain"

To my friends and the world of germ
these words are few to make you squirm.

We all joke at the luncheon table,
but I go home with the stigma label.

You all compare slyly wherever we room,
but when jeans don't fit, I feel the doom.

You all say it forget it..it sure don't matter,
but it does when you laugh, "your getting fatter".

No one understands your joking brought pain
No one understands the torment and strain

Your comparisons bring nothing but horror
maybe you wont miss me here tomorrow'

Maybe if you felt the pain, you may understand
I have no control over the fattening gland

I eat little food, I workout all day
I pray to god not to look this way

Why don't you understand folk like me?
Just respect us a little tastefully

I wanted nothing more than a life
All I got was this horrid strife

No more worries, no this, nor that
Its a shame I ended it looking fat...

Good-bye all...

m00n
 
 
 
 

Mine

Every time I see you
I wonder what to say
I'd like to say" I love you"
But you don't feel that way

I'd give anything to go back
To the way things used to be
Where my heart belonged to you
And yours belonged to me

If you knew the way I feel
I wonder what you'd do
Would you laugh, and walk with me
Or would you say" I love you too"

I know that I made a mistake
And I regret it every day
without you I am nothing
But it's not meant to be that way

Can you find in your heart forgiveness
For you're my soul mate, the one I desire
How can I go on without you?
My life will surely expire

When you look at me
Am I friend or am I love that's past
Really all you see in me?
Please tell me shall it last

Should you feel "that way"
There's a chance you surely see
For us, some how, some time
To be mine... I hope you'll be..

m00n

Facing Life

Life is one confusion...No one can deny
Its problems overcome me, I wonder why?
Firstly one, then another overlaps my existence
Some solved, some not, why are they so persistent?

Worn to a shadow of one's former self
From effort exertion that undermined stealth,
In trying to suppress the more difficult aggravation
Within this life nothing offers any consolation.

Nothing to be simple, nothing with ease
Every ounce of anything...squeezed,
From my body, my twisted soul
To only half reach my only goal.

Only to find the ending before I began
No problem or indifference should face any man,
The infliction of doom and stress with painted strife
Can I, in honesty continue to face a life?

m00n
 

Lose a Friend

Why are you never alone?
Always sat besides the telephone,
Boredom seeps into decay!
I'm sure you seek new games to play.

I'm easy prey...our faces meet and then...
Lured by the lucid charms of paradise, heavens den.
Oh why are you never alone? Silence is so unkind
Thoughts can never erase the tainted subconscious mind.

Words spoken avoid temptations sky of sensitive treasure
When seen inside the telling eye of the beholder are pleasure,
Thoughts surviving the invasion of love, lust and excitement
Deplete into diminished consolation of nothingness I lament.

Why are you never alone? Sat by the telephone
Your prey encircled in the fantasy of Paradise Island,
And I... am trapped in silence till my days end
And I... I will have lost a friend

m00n

" Remaining Thoughts"

She will cry no more, but be thankful of the life they shared.
She'll remember the good, the bad and cherish those forever.
His memory will live on and always remain in her heart till never.
He was her love, friend, and soulmate, 'her better half' and a limb.
The day he was taken from her side a piece of her died with him.
Emptiness filled her heart were love once lived in harmonious grace,
As her head lays upon the pillow, tears stream down her harkened face.
In her mind he never left and in his arms she will always be content.
Her conscience is reminded that this is false, but her soul can ner'e relent,
If she could just hold on to this minute a little longer they can reunite
Once again...she won... her mind let her feel him again this night...

m00n
 
 

Have Fears

The nights are so long
The days are so hard.
Not knowing what's lost.
My intentions barred.

The hours of thought.
What my lips can't kiss.
Your all I yearned
Your the one I miss.

Always we speak friendship
I think just of love 'a pledge'.
Hoping we have a great deal more.
Not just friendship on the 'edge'.

You tell me of your problems
I listen with open ears.
I'd like to tell you mine.
But I'll always have fears.

m00n

Broken and not Blessed

Always believing whatever you say
Forever knowing you to be true,
Working hard for our together ness
And never to doubt anything you do.

For why is there rejection?
Why is all I do so wrong?
For us to nurture partnership
Should our feelings not be strong?

Our lives are aimless complete in total distress
The path we trod prematurely outworn,
To argue, to bicker, by the hour at best
Nothing within it that's new to adorn.

I'm broken by existence that we've nurtured on
Sorry...I have no offer of solution or redress
No longer the person who I was, he's gone!
I'm just a remnant...'broken and not blessed'

m00n

"Hidden Inside"

I'm always wrong
I'm never right
Why don't I just kill
My self tonight

Why am I here
I'm a nuisance to life
I can't handle it
This pain and strife

They say they love me
But it doesn't matter
I'm a freak to society
With a heart that's flatter

Forget it no matter at all
Quickly I could end it
It's too easy to fall.
No effort to send it

I'm just a bore
I know I blew it...
Don't ask why but...
I'm too idle, to do it...

m00n
 
 
 

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